stress and high and still stressed

text i was going to send matt at 1:20AM when i was high on dec 06 off his weed that he mostly paid for and me and trev but yea i'm bad for stealing that weed behind their backs and even for that i'm sorry

but yea, this is the message i was going to send on facebook:
- "i'm being immature again, i know. i need to really work on that. i noticed it too and i wanted to make up excuses of why I act so much like a teeny bopper and really it's just because i don't know how to grow up but there's no one to blame but myself for my behaviour. i know i really want to work on myself but i don't want us to separate because of it. i want to keep with you and i promise i'm working on myself starting now. i make a lot of mistakes i know, and if there's anything i'm doing wrong just tell me and i'll try to fix it if you [i] can. i never want to cause any harm but it seems like im good at it anyway. i'm sorry for all my mistakes even if i dont remember them all. but i am very sorry for all my mistakes. i'll try harder to be a good girlfriend to you when we're going to be boyfriend and girlfriend or however you wanna call it. but yea, that's basically all i remember that i wanted to say but yea i'm going to not send this message in case it's a mistake too... mhm. :"