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I'm not mad. I'm sad. 

I'm sad because she needs this and you're there but when I need you, you can't even tell. I'm sad because I want to go out more but you're out playing. 
I'm sad because you want me to trust you yet you call me ugly and tease me to the point it's not funny anymore. 
I'm sad because you never ask me out. I'm sad because you make me jealous and I have to pretend not to be. I'm sad because I miss you so much it hurts and you don't seem to know at all that I'm hurt. I'm sad because you know she's hurt without her telling you. I'm sad because I don't have the release in fear of losing you. 
I'm sad because you have endless conversations with her but one word messages with me. I'm sad because you talk about yourself with me and the whole world with her. 
I'm sad because I feel so inferior to everyone around and it's like we don't know each other at all. I'm sad because I love you so much and you say you love me to but where? 

~C.