It's Too Late
I listened to this song, and the one line that stood out to me most was this: "Tomorrow never comes until it's too late." And it is too late. Tomorrow is just about 2 hours away and I haven't done a lot this summer. I haven't finished all the movies in the series I started. I haven't perfected my iced coffee (which I put vanilla ice cream into and no sugar; it's so strong now), and I haven't gone to any tourist things in my province. It wasn't a great summer now that I think of it. Lower than average quality if I have to be true to myself. I didn't even make any good 2 month friends or smoke some pot so it was boring.
I want to do shrooms.
I have school tomorrow, that's why it's too late. Labour day is literally the worst day to be on because that means that life is open for business and you're the one behind the counter selling crap no one needs. Yes. Although it's only orientation for these two days, I'm already stressed because I might have to quit working on Wednesdays (cuts my pay in half) and I still haven't bought any of my books or school supplies. As the years go on, I'm getting less and less prepared for school. I'm slowly giving up. It's like a cut in your favourite skinnies. It's just a tiny cut but slowly the strings come out and your favourite skinnies fall apart. That's my life. My procrastination is that cut.
What I'm actually worried about is not making any smart and cool friends. I want people who can benefit me in life. I sound like a total bitch who just uses people but if that's how I get ahead in life then so be it. Of course I do have to care about my friends or else I'll never be able to spend time with them ever. My point is that I need people who make me happy and aren't bad (as in not smart and don't care about things). I'm confused. I just want people who will be in a gang with me and still graduate with decent marks with me too!
In other news of today, I put on an Ampoule 3D mask today and man does my face feel soft and oh how it glows!
I just heard a gunshot!
Goodnight maybe.
I want to do shrooms.
I have school tomorrow, that's why it's too late. Labour day is literally the worst day to be on because that means that life is open for business and you're the one behind the counter selling crap no one needs. Yes. Although it's only orientation for these two days, I'm already stressed because I might have to quit working on Wednesdays (cuts my pay in half) and I still haven't bought any of my books or school supplies. As the years go on, I'm getting less and less prepared for school. I'm slowly giving up. It's like a cut in your favourite skinnies. It's just a tiny cut but slowly the strings come out and your favourite skinnies fall apart. That's my life. My procrastination is that cut.
What I'm actually worried about is not making any smart and cool friends. I want people who can benefit me in life. I sound like a total bitch who just uses people but if that's how I get ahead in life then so be it. Of course I do have to care about my friends or else I'll never be able to spend time with them ever. My point is that I need people who make me happy and aren't bad (as in not smart and don't care about things). I'm confused. I just want people who will be in a gang with me and still graduate with decent marks with me too!
In other news of today, I put on an Ampoule 3D mask today and man does my face feel soft and oh how it glows!
I just heard a gunshot!
Goodnight maybe.
~C.
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