Losing Sleep
It took me way too long to think of a title so as I write this I do not have a title. It's like not wearing underwear. Today was more chill than yesterday at school because there weren't like boring people supervising us. We went on a tour of the school led by 2 students who were pretty cool. One was openly a party animal, the other was quiet about it. We were talking about alcohol and stuff and one girl was so innocent! Basically she didn't know that alcohol dehydrates someone (which is why our leader was so thirsty) and she asked "why's he so thirsty." He also had beer in his bag and she said "can I see his beer" but ended up only trying to feel the bag for it. We realised she was so innocent so we went to a room where they give out free condoms and teased her about it. It was all good fun today. I got side tracked here because I was going to talk about myself and how I was asked that once I turn 18, if I'll drink. The innocent girl said she won't I said, without hesitation, that I will. How terrible would it be for me if someone read this blog and confronted me about this! I'd laugh at their face and cry too.
Tomorrow will be hell! It's first day of legit classes so I'm really scared about what to expect. I'm not that same gangster girl I was a week ago. I'm already wanting to cry! I broke out already and classes haven't even started. Everyone here looks so cool too! It's like they all were the coolest kids in school. I'm so mad!
My blog posts are getting smaller and smaller because I don't have a lot to write. Each day is such a blur and it's all about school now. No more me time.
But I have to say, I noticed these veins on my sides yesterday and I think they look pretty. They start at my hip and travel all the way up to my heart. I think it's the most beautiful part about my body. Speaking of this, in orientation I should've said this but that would be even weirder than saying "i like the taste of fire." I do but no one understands me. Also I looked like a FOB so y'know whatever.
Tomorrow I'm going to check out the bookstores and actually buy my textbooks. And perhaps explore some more of the campus. The garden there is actually so beautiful. There was an outdoor movie tonight and I told a friend I'd go but I feel so bad for ditching. I'll tell him tomorrow that we can go to a movie on the weekend or something since I actually feel really bad about it. He was being so nice to me yesterday and today like a true friend or something like that. And it's unfortunate to say but the cliche and stereotype is etched into my mind so I sometimes feel like he's into me. It's sad though because he's most likely just being a good friend.
Yeah, I'll take my knitting with me tomorrow (it's actually all pearled but y'know what I mean) and during my six hour break I'll knit or something I'm about a third done my scarf now.
Tomorrow will be hell! It's first day of legit classes so I'm really scared about what to expect. I'm not that same gangster girl I was a week ago. I'm already wanting to cry! I broke out already and classes haven't even started. Everyone here looks so cool too! It's like they all were the coolest kids in school. I'm so mad!
My blog posts are getting smaller and smaller because I don't have a lot to write. Each day is such a blur and it's all about school now. No more me time.
But I have to say, I noticed these veins on my sides yesterday and I think they look pretty. They start at my hip and travel all the way up to my heart. I think it's the most beautiful part about my body. Speaking of this, in orientation I should've said this but that would be even weirder than saying "i like the taste of fire." I do but no one understands me. Also I looked like a FOB so y'know whatever.
Tomorrow I'm going to check out the bookstores and actually buy my textbooks. And perhaps explore some more of the campus. The garden there is actually so beautiful. There was an outdoor movie tonight and I told a friend I'd go but I feel so bad for ditching. I'll tell him tomorrow that we can go to a movie on the weekend or something since I actually feel really bad about it. He was being so nice to me yesterday and today like a true friend or something like that. And it's unfortunate to say but the cliche and stereotype is etched into my mind so I sometimes feel like he's into me. It's sad though because he's most likely just being a good friend.
Yeah, I'll take my knitting with me tomorrow (it's actually all pearled but y'know what I mean) and during my six hour break I'll knit or something I'm about a third done my scarf now.
~C.
(P.S I hope I make a lot of new friends or I'll be the loner kid who is actually cool but just shy idk. And I also hope to see my cousin tomorrow because he's cool idk if he'll be there though. My leader is doing the same program as him but I'm not sure if they know each other.)
(P.P.S. that was a long ps)
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