Do We Cry?
There are a million words to say, an infinite amount of conversations to have so why does my brain always seem to think the same thing?
I tried to watch the third movie but I just can't stand the fact that an old man is playing a teenager. And his accent makes me want to throw up, along with his rotten teen. I feel like the people who made that movie forgot what kids look like and act like. Sure some 17 year old high school kids are pretty reckless but that doesn't mean they are balding and sound like Beverly Hillbillies.
I started knitting a gangster black scarf on 8mm needles. Needless to say, pun intended, it won't be a winter scarf because of how loose the stitches are. Instead, it's more of my gangster fashion. However, there's only a tiny ball of yarn I have to work with so unfortunately I'll have to stop after a while until I get the same kind of black yarn.
A couple of days ago, at the orthodontist's office, one of the ladies who works there was asking me about how old I am and all that. I said I'm turning 18 in a few months and she was so surprised, and jokingly told me she'll take me out. It got me thinking, when I'm 18, will I do those stereotypical 18 year old things like drink, go clubbing, buy smokes? Maybe one day when I'm feeling really bad and totally gangster but it's very unlikely. I think too much about how people see me, that's the only reason why. I have cousins, friends, younger sister, caring parents, and judgemental relatives so all those hundred pairs of eyes are on my the second I turn 18.
The question is, if I do those things. Even once, how do I hide it? I got high last year. It was once. And I hid it so well. But how do you hide a pack of cigarettes or being drunk or going out? I want to say that you just cry when someone finds out and leave them be. But the reality is that you just hide it with the help of people you can trust.
I've made the slight mistake of sharing this blog with people I know in real life. Now I must make the decision to trust them will this information if they do choose to read it. I'm not a bad kid, I'm just experimenting life. You don't grow up according to age. No, you grow up according to your grade in school. All seniors are the same, regardless of age, but not all 16 year olds are the same.
I tried to watch the third movie but I just can't stand the fact that an old man is playing a teenager. And his accent makes me want to throw up, along with his rotten teen. I feel like the people who made that movie forgot what kids look like and act like. Sure some 17 year old high school kids are pretty reckless but that doesn't mean they are balding and sound like Beverly Hillbillies.
I started knitting a gangster black scarf on 8mm needles. Needless to say, pun intended, it won't be a winter scarf because of how loose the stitches are. Instead, it's more of my gangster fashion. However, there's only a tiny ball of yarn I have to work with so unfortunately I'll have to stop after a while until I get the same kind of black yarn.
A couple of days ago, at the orthodontist's office, one of the ladies who works there was asking me about how old I am and all that. I said I'm turning 18 in a few months and she was so surprised, and jokingly told me she'll take me out. It got me thinking, when I'm 18, will I do those stereotypical 18 year old things like drink, go clubbing, buy smokes? Maybe one day when I'm feeling really bad and totally gangster but it's very unlikely. I think too much about how people see me, that's the only reason why. I have cousins, friends, younger sister, caring parents, and judgemental relatives so all those hundred pairs of eyes are on my the second I turn 18.
The question is, if I do those things. Even once, how do I hide it? I got high last year. It was once. And I hid it so well. But how do you hide a pack of cigarettes or being drunk or going out? I want to say that you just cry when someone finds out and leave them be. But the reality is that you just hide it with the help of people you can trust.
I've made the slight mistake of sharing this blog with people I know in real life. Now I must make the decision to trust them will this information if they do choose to read it. I'm not a bad kid, I'm just experimenting life. You don't grow up according to age. No, you grow up according to your grade in school. All seniors are the same, regardless of age, but not all 16 year olds are the same.
~C.
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