so much anger?

Even though I decide to keep most details off this blog, and only try to look at the general ideas of life and its happenings, I am not like that in real life. I dwell too much on the details. I get in fights and can't stop thinking about them weeks later. I yell and want revenge and revenge is never enough so I'll hold grudges. What's wrong with me? 

That's why I have this blog. To let go of that. To show myself how to let go. How to keep the lessons from forgetting about things. 

This blog is here for me to reflect when I'm in a terrible place. And I'm in the worst place I've been right now. So I'm making too many of these posts. 

~C.

(P.S. I see the views and I know you don't look at my blog at all, but I always thinks it's you. Unhealthy.)

(P.P.S. I wish we could start over. Start over as friends. All of us. Even her.)