Car music
When you and your boyfriend have history with cars, doesn't having a playlist of driving songs just fit so well?
Over the past, I've been very self conscious. From feelings super anxious in social situations because of my low self esteem, to binge and purge cycle to cutting to suicidal tendencies to actual depression. Over that time (grade 5 onward? maybe 4?) I've gained and lost weight a lot. Maybe even from before that, now that I think about it. But until I was 15, I didn't care about my body image at all. I was happy being myself.
But then, once the binge and purge began and halted. I had went from 118 to 100 in just 2 months. For all of high school I tried to maintain my body weight under 110. Succeeded. Realized at 17, I need to gain weight and got to 110.
In just 2 years I gained 10 more pounds BUT, now I'm too lazy and mentally stable to fall back into the binge and purge cycle again. SO guess what I'm doing now! I am trying to work out!
I found a GREAT workout and meal plan which I tried to follow all of this past school year but failed. Just because of school. But now, since it's summer and no more classes, I'm going to start actually following this stuff. Wow I'm excited!
It's just day 2, so let's see how I do this month!
Over the past, I've been very self conscious. From feelings super anxious in social situations because of my low self esteem, to binge and purge cycle to cutting to suicidal tendencies to actual depression. Over that time (grade 5 onward? maybe 4?) I've gained and lost weight a lot. Maybe even from before that, now that I think about it. But until I was 15, I didn't care about my body image at all. I was happy being myself.
But then, once the binge and purge began and halted. I had went from 118 to 100 in just 2 months. For all of high school I tried to maintain my body weight under 110. Succeeded. Realized at 17, I need to gain weight and got to 110.
In just 2 years I gained 10 more pounds BUT, now I'm too lazy and mentally stable to fall back into the binge and purge cycle again. SO guess what I'm doing now! I am trying to work out!
I found a GREAT workout and meal plan which I tried to follow all of this past school year but failed. Just because of school. But now, since it's summer and no more classes, I'm going to start actually following this stuff. Wow I'm excited!
It's just day 2, so let's see how I do this month!
-C.
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